Saturday, December 30, 2006 ;
12:56:00 AM
i'm leaving usa for home very very soon. came online to check my bidding results and thanks to eileen i managed to get what i bidded for. (:
anyway, i feel as if so much have changed since i've left. sometimes when i think of memories, its so strange, as if i am looking in from outside into another life. it isnt me anymore. and yet its me, because i am in pieces, and it couldnt have been that way unless you were still yourself.
and i look further, into my friendships, and i wonder. i used to know you. now i cant ever say that anymore. you are no longer the person i used to laugh with, or talk to, or go out with. i hate change in life, because that means you have to say goodbye.
i look to my future - and i dont like it. you were my pillars and support, and no matter who else may take that place for now, they are not you, can never understand me the way you did. i miss you, and the way you were my friends.
i dont like thinking. but the impending plane ride promises that. listened to many songs on this trip while traveling from place to place, and especially songs i never knew i had before in my ipod. i like blessid union of soul's light in your eyes. and many more.. i dont know. its just qt depressing when i reminisicise about my life because i dont really know what to look forward to anymore.
every day is a new day ♥
