Saturday, November 11, 2006 ;
10:26:00 PM
went to aunty carol's this morning for a chat. dunno why i always think i'll break down talking about it but i never do. it only happens when i'm alone in the night. oh well.
anyway. she told me to clear up my mess. doing things to try to forget it wouldnt help. that's procastinating, not cleaning it up. she said i have to be self-reflective. sigh. dunno. a part of me still cannot believe i'm going through all this. it was impossible, just 3 months back. ah. its pointless to talk about that now.
anyway. and i talked to her of something else. she made me realize that sometimes letting go is better, because then its the only way when you can see God working - not you. that i'm not the one who could make things right in your life, but its God. she told me to step back. and i thought it made alot of sense.
and so.. i'm going to try to let go of one. no matter how difficult it is, and will be.
and i'm going to 'give up' on another, because.. well. i've really tried. maybe its time for me to let God try.
every day is a new day ♥
