Saturday, February 11, 2006 ;
11:17:00 AM
the workload in school is getting heavier and heavier.. and soon there are politics flying around that never existed before the stress settled in. its quite sad really, to see the ugly side of someone. not that i can say that i've never shown mine, but still. yup.
am going to have my primary-cum-jc friend's 21st birthday party for the year.. it finally sinks in how everyone around me is turning that big 21 and its going to be my turn too. its quite a startling revelation sometimes when i think about it because i've never thought of how i'd be like when i'm 21, i just grow up and take a day at a day. i recall when i was a mere 14-yr-old when suri and i liked to sit down to talk and wonder about our futures.. when we always tried to imagine ourselves to be. to say that i'm what i dreamed and thought i'd be would be a falsehood, yet.. i dont know. it seems that suddenly my life is just a life that takes a day by day, and it doesnt have this
ultimate goal or purpose beyond a 24 hr span that renews after every 24 hrs. like, what in the world am i going to do after i graduate? the answer is that i really
dont know. i thought i would go into magazines but something happened yesterday that made me realize how unsavoury magazines can really get and i dont think i want to be a part of that industry. perhaps a more neutral one that focuses only on fashion and style would be something i'm looking for -
but still-
i really need to seek God for that badly-needed guidance.
and anyway, here's congratulating my dear cell girls on their fantastic 'o' level results.. they are all smarty-pants la. haha oh wells. indeed God is great!
every day is a new day ♥
