Tuesday, February 07, 2006 ;
10:57:00 PM
recently i just dont know what to blog about. every morning i wake up dreading the day ahead of me in school and looking immmeasurably forward to the weekends. its just kind of empty.. i think.
dry. barren. i think these words describe me.
i have been too intolerable these days - esp in school and eileen bears most of the brunt of it i suppose. it doesnt mean i say anything but i guess its the attitude, its the way i look at her, at everything else. i realize i am quite incapable of keeping friends too close because after a while, i cant maintain the intensity of that friendship. i chicken out. i move away. i back off. and i dont know why - and its not fair to the other party.
so i guess i can say maybe that this is an unspoken apology to you, my friend(s).. and i thank you for bearing with me, and giving me chances more than i deserve to have.
deadlines are drawing closer fast and furious. ting! study. mug..
getoutta'here.
every day is a new day ♥
