every day ; a new day

Tuesday, January 10, 2006 ;

11:01:00 PM

i am resolute on the fact that i have definitely grown fatter. ever since i returned from china, it has been feast after feast for both luncheons and dinners. its simply impossible. my body can only take so much! to be truthful, i've only eaten at home once for the past one month - its either i've been too busy outside catching up with friends and family, or its because i have a new maid who is still learning the ropes. ahh well. anyway, i realized that aunty ivy really knows how to throw a feast. nevertheless, its time enough to cut down and diet!! yes.

and i came across this old poem (Margaret Atwood's 'Variations on the Word Sleep'), and it seems to say so much that there's no new way to say it.

I would like to watch you sleeping,
which may not happen.
I would like to watch you,
sleeping. I would like to sleep
with you, to enter
your sleep as its smooth dark wave
slides over my head

and walk with you through that lucent
wavering forest of bluegreen leaves
with its watery sun and three moons
towards the cave where you must descend,
towards your worst fear

I would like to give you the silver
branch, the small white flower, the one
word that will protect you
from the grief at the center
of your dream, from the grief
at the center. I would like to follow
you up the long stairway
again and become
the boat that will row you back
carefully, a flame
in two cupped hands
to where your body lies
beside me, and you enter
it as easily as breathing in.

I would like to be the air
that inhabits you for a moment
only. I would like to be that unnoticed
and that neccessary.

school's ok i suppose. with eileen with me for all the modules i'm taking, i guess i cant complain. =) thank you Lord.

every day is a new day ♥