Friday, August 26, 2005 ;
11:57:00 PM
missed lecture today.. my alarm rang as it should at 615am but i shut it off and closed my eyes - intending to rest for another 5 minutes.. and before i knew it, i fell once again into a heavy doze and i only woke up at 753am - when my lecture starts at 8am. i knew then i couldnt possibly make it. oh wells. thank goodness its not like a literature or new media lecture. guess i was more tired than i thought.
i seem to be writing in a much more fatalistic manner and i dont know why. i feel sad somehow; everytime i talk to you and find that its different the way we converse and the lack of interest on your part. its so hard to imagine that 3/4 years ago it was so different.
oh wells. time changes people and people changes over time. i cant always imagine that everyone will remain like pip in Great Expectations - whose heart, despite time, never turned from estella, even when a biddy presented a better choice, and he knew it. bah. i'm confusing myself.
am thinking of going to church early and study tomorrow morning. i dont think studying at home is very fruitful, for for the past 2 days that i stayed home, i didnt really get to do alot of work. guess with the internet and books and tv and phone, i tend to get easily distracted. argh. i need to find a studying space and studying buddies.
every day is a new day ♥
