Monday, August 29, 2005 ;
8:28:00 PM
everything's happening a little too fast and i'm being swept away by the tide.
i need You to hold on to.
i have started to procastinate again. argh. i must, i have got to start studying hard. i
need to do better this semester. i need to show myself that i can do it, that i can touch an A; that i wont be disappointing all i know. i really have to push myself hard; perhaps harder than the A Levels.
i wish i could get help somewhere.. i find the sci-fi tutorials so intimidating and incomprehensible. i know i have to say something, for participation marks, but nothing comes out of my throat.. even my thoughts are too scattered. i am in awe indeed of elizabeth who can easily piece together what she means to say, and say things that somehow always manages to achieve the approval of susan ang. arrrrrrrrrrrrggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. the presence of the two american males in the tutorial group with their heavy accents do not help either.
and i just found out that i missed a literature (19th cent) tutorial last week by mistake. i hate missing tutorials because i know that if i do, i'd be so lost. sigh.
20th cent's Eliot
The Wasteland is literally leaving me wasted. gilbert yeoh, endearing as he is, cannot seem to endear me to this poet of irish mythologies and.. well.. what not. i hate to say it but i find myself leaving many of the classes feeling confused. and the worst thing is, i just dont know exactly what it is i'm confused about.
i need to stop worrying. and start trusting, and start studying.
every day is a new day ♥
