Thursday, July 21, 2005 ;
12:14:00 AM
i always thought it was the girls who desperately hung on to the last, the ones who were emotional and never wanted the relationship to end. the ones who would keep trying and trying their best to salvage whatever was, whatever once existed between her love and her. how wrong i was. it just hurts me so to see my dear friend suffering so much, being so lost and confused, wondering where on earth he went wrong. and its all not even his fault; and yet this is all he received for the love he freely gave.
if only i could have the right words to say, to take away your pain, hurt and confusion. your tears. i never thought i would ever hear him cry. he never seemed the sort to me when i knew him first - and shit, it really hurts like hell, as if it was me feeling it too. he doesnt deserve this at all. gosh he should really just walk away and wash his hands off her. but he's better than that. he is.
and it makes me still, at the same time, marvel at the power of love. for all she spews in her drunken state, the careless words that pierces his heart like ice-cold daggers.. he still loves her. he still cares. its amazing. all he asks is just her love, her trust in
him, rather than trust some bimbotic blond-haired dyed job bitch. shit. i'm really angry. argh i really am.
how can someone i know in primary school turn out so bad? to turn around and hurt people with lies, deceit and malice.. what, does she thrive on hurt and sorrow? i
really want to slap her face if i ever see her again in nus. the way she lies to her, the way she slaps lies upon lies upon lies unto that poor girl.. argh damn it damn it damn it! and
WHY does that girl believe this ridiculous liar that doesnt care a thing about her, instead of her partner who has loved her so much the past one and a half years!
this is absolute crap. i'm so sorry, to
you, for being so helpless and unable to do anything to ease your pain. i am so so so sorry.
every day is a new day ♥
