Monday, May 16, 2005 ;
10:57:00 PM
"I hate everyone I know and love the strangers on the street.
Sometimes I think narcissism transcends even to our reactions and relationships with others. How can I be sure that I like you for who you are and not because I like the girl I am when I'm with you?
Perhaps you and me is a misnomer, and by that I mean me and me when I’m with you.
Misanthropy thus = a general state of dislike targeted at myself, regardless of who I am with."
i love the way
she writes and i yearn to have such a keen sense of the English language as she does, the way she thinks is so different and unique; it is so special. i sigh everytime i read her page and wish i could, but the discrepancy only grows larger and larger in my eyes, until it becomes a permanent blur.
anyway i chose to paste that entry she wrote because it speaks so true. indeed, tell me,
how can i be sure that i like you for who you are and not because i like the girl i am when i am with you? all this while, why do i only call up certain friends to go out with, and not others? because i like who i am with them? the very thought of it is scary - how narcissism transcends all the borders of your own character and even the way you choose your friends.
i read my friend's blog today and i'm happy and surprised to learn she committed her life to Christ. apparently one of her friends spoke to her after a terrible car accident she had and she realized that she needed the love and grace of God in her life. i am happy. =)
came back from playing badminton with cell not too long ago.. it was fun! haha well i just hope that charlene will be able to pull through her test on wednesday. pls do keep her in prayer! =) darren was really nice to send serena, rachel and myself home.. was quite surprised he did so. yup..
my mum has fallen sick and i'm quite worried because she hardly is ill. do do do pray for her people and that God will restore her back to health by tomorrow morning. thank you guys! =)
every day is a new day ♥
