Monday, April 11, 2005 ;
12:08:00 AM
bet majority has already heard about the proposal a guy made to a girl during some math lecture in science fac in nus.. its hilarious when i first saw it.. yuheng downloaded it and let me watch on his laptop. its really wow. haha.. oh well. pple criticize alot but i dont know.. its just makes me think of my quote again? i mean, rebecca's quote. about how it takes great bravery to tell someone you like him/her but it takes more to walk away if it does not work out. i came so close to the latter situation and i know its the closest thing to heartbreak i've ever known. if it had never worked out.. i dont know what would become of me now.
but well, i dont think this only applies to couples but friends too? its hard to let go after so much has been put into it. and yet sooner or later, everyone grows out of each other and we find new friends, new people "our wavelength" and then what happens to the "old friends are gold?" gee. just look at me. i used to be so close to kristine, mary and rachel in church.. and now? yeah.. we hardly even talk? except for the occasional hi. (maybe rachel a little more than that.) but the idea is there? what will become of my friends and i 10 years down the road? we always say that we'll always be there.. but will we? will they? 10000 promises i dont need.
i wish i could find those days back again.. when we were always screaming and laughing.. there were never tears, nor awkwardness, nor constant wondering of what the other party thought; just plain us. i miss their friendship. yes theirs - kristine's, mary's and rachel's. and a whole host of others. but so much has happened, so much undone, unsaid and left alone.....
oh well. i'm just looking forward to a whole new beginning and i rejoice still in the friends i have.. precious gems. wish somehow though now that i dont have to be struggling with an issue of letting go from something i hold dear and cherish because, the other party seems, as aforementioned, to have grown out of us.
every day is a new day ♥
