Monday, March 28, 2005 ;
7:38:00 PM
think alot of things have happened the past few days but i didnt really blog about it. only abstract things that i realize now i shouldnt have let my heart dwell upon that much. ok this is gonna be a long long entry. =)
anyway. lets talk about gd friday.. i remember being so wasted that night. haha ok i sound like i took drugs on gd friday night or something but no i didnt. duh. it was due to the day's activities i guess - gd friday's morning service. i realize that i miss daniel foo's preaching. no offence to pastor kk though.. grin. even if daniel foo's messages are mostly about spiritual warfare and the spiritual realm - something seemingly abstract but actually so very real. just like jeff aw's sharing on sat (which is super funny at the same time). yup. then it went on to the Stranger's event. whoa. haha it was the first time in a long long while since i put on such heavy make up and it felt so weird. xiang and i washed it off within less than an hour when the production ended. haha.. she was sooo funny la. caught her in the toilet trying to wash off the mascara and eyeliner with water. her face was streaked. so gross and hilarious. haha had to go in search of dot for eye make up remover.. yup. hmm it felt kinda nostalgic at the same time though coz i kinda realize that it might be the last time i may ever get involved in a production like this coz (yes, i'm admitting it and facing it at last) i'm getting too old for the youth ministry - i think i was the oldest onstage throughout the entire play, other than andrew! *argh* jingmin and i were talking about it one night.. cant remember when! haha and we were expressing how we will be soo reluctant to leave ym when it comes down to it. =( anyway 13 souls made the step to come to know the Lord and even though i knew i kinda expected more, can i argue with the Lord's will? =) and actually, 13 people is alot! bet the kingdom of heaven was rejoicing the whole night when the rest of us were tucked in our beds asleep and resting.
and fri night i was invited to keith's 21st bday party.. marie was there! turns out that she is jessica's best friend! heh.. what a small world this place is. still it seems a little weird that out of all people, she's keeping in touch with keith from bbtc. haha but things never always turn out the way you want it to be! its just rather unexpected however. =) realized that leon's an aweeessomme gentleman that day. haha when we were crossing the road to hail a cab to go to his house for a shower as we were so sticky from the day's events.. he kept walking to the side of oncoming traffic and grabbed my arm to lead me across the road. i mean, yes i can cross the road myself for sure, but seriously how many guys do that nowadays? haha he's seriously a romeo in medieval times. and btw it was in keith's house where i injured my left eye.. coz as xiang and i were resting near the front of the house as we were exhausted, i accidentally brought a pillow too close to my eyes and the edge of the pillowcase swiped through my left eye and caused it to hurt for two whole days. it was quite bad on sat esp during cell on sat when it couldnt stop tearing and i couldnt look up or down, only straight ahead. even when i was out with john that night it was still quite bad that he had to bring me home early. =( thankfully it was ok by sunday and now it doesnt hurt anymore! thanks caron and serena for asking k? *hugs*
and sunday. guess what. within 3 days i went to 4 services. wahaha.. woke up early in the morning to go to john's church coz he was being baptized.. but when i went there things were SO different. they get baptized by the pastor/elder sprinkling water on the head, as compared to bbtc's complete immersion in water. gee. but as long as the pple being baptized are carefully and rightfully instructed in the Word, i guess the practice doesnt matter; as long as the heart is in the right place. and that silly boy, he wasnt even being baptized at all la. at least jonathan and zhixian were.. kenji and bj were only reaffirming their faith. grr haha.. cost me cab fare to rush down just in time for second service to watch xiang's baptism.. she was soo funny again la. kept smiling and laughing in the baptism "pool" as it is.. and after the event she could still ask me whether she was the only one who laughed that much when being baptized. arggghh hahaha.. after lunch with family, dz dropped me off in orchard where i met bj again for movie, shopping and dinner.. =) we watched "in good company" and i must say its one of the better shows i've watched. its really entertaining and funny, not stale or dry jokes but yeah.. and even though the ending isnt one the audience would expect - not a happy fairytale ending persay - but everyone walks out still feeling this sense of unexplainable warmth somehow. and yet the show also addresses some issues.. such as how someone may appear to have it all on the outside, and yet so so so so lonely. and how we always take our family for granted. always. its a good watch and i'd love to watch it again if i could. think i'll recommend it to daniel! =) he's a total movie buff la.
anyway i've sorted out some things in my life and i'm happier for it. readjusted some priorities and even if they were painful (and still are) i guess and hope its gonna be for the better. sorry for the depressing blog the past few.. days? weeks? oh well. heh. life has its ups and downs. thanks to daniel, evelyn, and feli for listening through it all.
picked up Philip Yancey to read again.. i've realized i've kinda neglected the book and stopped reading even though i've not finished. its really edifying. and there's this paragraph i read that goes like this:
Suppose there was a person who always saw the possibilties in you, who always forgave you for what you are and who constantly, sympathetically challenged you to become what you should be. And suppose this person is not just anyone, but is a person to whom you and everyone else is ultimately responsible. Would not such a person enable you to discover the power of love, to realize the truth of the claim that only the loved can love? Would not such a person be loved in your love for youself and for others? If so, then in devotion to that person you would love yourself and your neighbour as you love youself. And that would be something truly awesome... - (an illustration that comes from Edward Langerak)
i had lived a life that kept looking for that someone in the form of man but now i realize that that "someone" i'm looking for does not exist in man, but in my Lord, Savior, and Friend Christ Jesus. Amen.
every day is a new day ♥
