Tuesday, February 08, 2005 ;
11:29:00 PM
its like a vicious cycle following after us relentlessly and never giving up.
i feel so lost, so naked and bared. absolutely vulnerable with nowhere to run to, no secret garden to hide. and its still ever searching, exposing my weakest parts and exploiting them.. reducing me to nothing but a river of tears.
i just wish things didnt have to be so damn complicated and that they were easier. and i cant understand why its so easy to love and so difficult to keep that love going along the straight, rocky, narrow path. i'm drained and i cant rightly figure out why - it might be the talks and the phone calls. there's this gripping in my heart - stunted breaths and pumping adrenaline - doesnt help much either. i'm exhausted.
strengthen me O Lord, keep me leaning upon you only. for it is you and you alone who can supply my every need.
every day is a new day ♥
