Monday, January 31, 2005 ;
12:13:00 AM
just came back some time ago from leon's grandmother's birthday dinner. she's 92 yrs old now! wow.. haha.. yeah well learnt some lessons from the dinner today. i mean its like his grandma is so old that she has to rely on hearing aids to hear.. but even with it i feel that most of the time when i talk to her she doesnt really know what i'm saying. uncle dennis, however, always repeats what we're saying to her and takes extremely good care of his mother. he doesnt just get her a maid and think that his job is done but instead he goes to her house, brings her to church and home and takes her out for lunch.. cares for her and doesnt see her as a burden at all. he's really really excellent. he sets a great example for all of us youth there. =)
it just kinda hit me with a sudden realization that i'll be 20 yrs old this yr. gee.. yaryar pple like caron and stef will tease me and say i'm old but well. its just something uncle alfred told me over lunch today. i'm 20 and i'm not too young, nor just an adult to do anything much. and how he asked me to ask myself if i can tell myself that i've done enough.. sigh. i just didnt know how to answer coz i guess the answer is no. though he was referring to the context of our discussion, i think the question can be interpreted to be applied to the other areas of my life as well. i just dont know and i am.. i just wish they wouldnt lump everything on me because i'm finally of age.. i need someone to help me through. it really scares me so bad. it really does. and i dont know what to do then to pretend that i've it all together.
anyway i hope this week will be a better one.
every day is a new day ♥
