Tuesday, January 18, 2005 ;
10:50:00 PM
it was as though cold water was splashed right into my face. and throughout it all, thankfully, i managed to keep a straight face. i dont know if she was joking, or if she didnt think when she said it.. or if she really meant it. still..
its like.. i dont understand. i mean i've known her a little over the 3 or 4 yrs.. and i never thought her to say such things as she did today. its just quite shocking. but nevertheless it made me resolve to prove her wrong, so so so wrong. and just shove it into her face in the end.. and let the whole world know that i'm not stupid - that i can, i
can do it. i'm not going to be the slacker i was. gosh. i have
got to do it.
i'm not pissed or anything. which surprises me. these kind of things actually do piss me off often. but rather i just feel a sense of wonderment. what ever could have caused those words to spill out so easily? bj suggested that its probably coz she was in a bad mood before that.. hence.. yeah. but i dont think so. ahh. whatever la. maybe God allowed her to say whatever she did to motivate me, splash icy water into my face to wake me up from my lazy sticky mire. i'm really
really gonna prove you wrong. whatever it takes.
every day is a new day ♥
