Friday, January 21, 2005 ;
12:01:00 AM
it seems to get crappier and crappier everyday. i dont know. the mood, the things said, the feelings involved. everything. so tense, unnatural. my thoughts all over, spilling.. and i dont know how to stop. sigh. i hate feeling the way i always do and i cant control myself. and i hate seeing pple i dont want to see but have to pretend that i'm oh-so glad to see them.. and i hate coming home tired only to be the butt of someone's irritation, anger and questioning.
watched "Hotel Rwanda" today. its really quite good i must say. its just so sad, so so sad and bitterly sweet. how, just how can any
human being be so heartlessly cruel, so blinded by their own twisted beliefs that they would do anything to acheive it? some lines in the show could just turn my blood to ice.
"do you really believe you can get them all?"
"why not, Paul, why not? we're already halfway there."
1 million lives. gone. brutually snatched away. 1994.
bsf was also quite edifying. my notes:
despite all the natural disasters and mass killings that may happen now, it doesnt automatically mean Christ's second coming. it does not mean that God's bringing judgment to the world now. in fact, God had already dealt judgment before the world began. instead, learn to recognize the signs that will precede Christ's second coming. can you recognize them?
and another part: (referring to 2 thessalonians 2)
God CHOSE me to be saved. and he probably had an objective in doing so. out of 6 billion pple on the planet, he chose me to be a Christian.
its just food for thought.. esp the first one. can i, do i recognize the signs that precede the day of the Lord Jesus Christ?
sigh.
every day is a new day ♥
