Friday, December 24, 2004 ;
12:23:00 AM
went to sentosa today.. wanted to suntan but the sun kept hiding behind the clouds and i hardly got any darker. oh well. another time perhaps. it was quite fun just slacking there on the beach though =)
came home to shower then went to ab's house for potluck dinner. felt quite awkward at first because it was all bj's friends but after a while i guess i managed to settle in. nothing much to say - just that olivia's carrot cake was delicious. *yum*!
i sometimes wish that i know where i stand with you. what exactly do i mean to you and do you really care.. or is everything just something out of obligation? i cant believe buying Christmas presents can bring all these questions to mind. how will i ever know
for sure that what i see and receive from you is real, not something given to avoid any misunderstanding, but something really
really from the heart? sigh. i guess i can never know. (and i'm not just talking about Christmas presents here - there are two levels of meaning - its whether you can see it or not)
every day is a new day ♥
