Sunday, December 26, 2004 ;
11:21:00 PM
many things happened today. sometimes i find it hard to believe that i actually went to church early this morning, not yesterday. its like.. time flies so fast and yet so slow.. if you get what i mean.
just feeling a little down now. mum's flying off to vietnam tomorrow and i just got a scolding from her. about losing her precious samsonite lock that she bought from USA. argh i dont know la. the last words she said was what.. "and you dont even have the decency to tell me that you lost it." i was like.. sigh i didnt remember. just feel like absolute crap. like i.. i am just some failure la. there are many other things she said before.. i just dont feel like repeating them.
got my exam results back and though they are more or less expected, i admit i'm disappointed for lit. no, make that downright disappointed. dont know la. argh. but anyway i do have to thank God for providing for me - that even though i didnt study that hard enough he still enabled me to pass all the modules. didnt get an A grade for anything. not even lit. feel like a disappointment. but feli brought a little hope i guess.. my cap score is 3.1. but i still have to work really hard next semester. minimum grade i can get is a B. argh.
i know i'm kinda like wallowing in self pity now but i cant help it. gosh, i really need to break out from this mire. soon.
anyway thanks bj for the lovely walk back to the mrt.. dunno.. it just felt so nice. singing under the night sky with arms gently holding the other.. we should do it more often. =) i especially liked the part with the josh groban song of "To Where You Are". and thanks for inspiring me to take up piano again.. i just went through the first part of the song in The Phantom of the Opera - All I Ask Of You. am gonna practice more tomorrow.. okie? i dont understand why i dropped piano. it makes me relaxed.. and forget things.. and feel.. more at peace. somehow.
every day is a new day ♥
