Wednesday, November 24, 2004 ;
3:04:00 PM
haha cant believe it my dear old cousin is featured in the newspapers yesterday as the central figure of IPO. he was P! hahaha.. finally he got his childhood wish of been clothed in superman-like spandex. wahhaha. okok i'm mean. even though its yellow, and not red and blue. *grinz*
exams are so tedious. i really dont feel like studying anymore. i hate ploughing through economics (that i've been doing for the past three yrs!!!!!) and south asian studies.. gross gross gross! lit and el paper are finally done and over with but oh well. i'm not expecting much. seriously am expecting all Cs for my papers.. and then next semester, i'm honestly going to be a self declared nerd. cooping up in the library and oh i dont know. studying.. mugging.. might even come to the point where i'll need specs! wahaha.. perhaps i shld go bring my sleeping bag every day and leave it in school library. ok, i'm getting mad. but yeah i really need to be disciplined next semester to hike up my cap points. WHO EVER SAID UNI LIFE WAS FUN?!!? i'm so gonna scream at that person.
i'm looking forward so much to 3pm on 27th nov.. once i walk out of that lt i'm going to RUN away from nus. argh. but sigh. still cant go and live it up. duty calls and i've to go to church for yep stayover. sigh. its not like i'm really looking forward to it la. that's the problem with big gigantic groups. people like me feel terribly sidelined coz there arent anything in particular that we can offer, except smiles and presence and stupidity. just hope that mum will let me have dinner with bj on sunday night at least. dear, i want to play sonic! haha.. *grinz*
oh and i've more or less decided what i want to do next semester: psychology, another level 2 eng lit module, theatre studies, entreprenuerial marketing/biz GEM and spore studies. yup! =)
and in reply, yeah sure, it sometimes does feel that way. for isnt it the truth? i'm starting to believe in the phrase "friends come and go". i just bumped into my secondary school friends when i was walking home two nights ago.. three of them were cycling.. and though they recognized my voice the minute i called out their names.. it was a painful, awkward renuion, though pleasurable to know that somehow,
they are still there. their faces were so much so the same.. like a constant in this world. and yet, at the same time, we were conscious of the huge time gap since the last time we met.. and its no longer constant anymore. i ended the conversation. closure.
i wonder that should my nus friends ever read this blog, they'll be stunned. to them, i'm forever optimistic, happy-go-lucky. i hate this dual personality. and yet, how do you be real and not lose friends? maybe that's it. that's how i am. dual.
every day is a new day ♥
