Sunday, November 07, 2004 ;
9:16:00 PM
bj came over again today =) said he'll study with me and he ended up sleeping like a log.. hahaha fed up. oh well its the thought that counts i guess. *beams* though somehow when he left, i felt undescribably..
something. lonely perhaps. not coz of him. but realizing that.. well.. i just wish my mum was here and that i had a good, close friend to talk to.. i just feel tired of faking it all sometimes, of wondering where i stand with certain people, or whether i'm even standing somewhere with them at all.. i just dont know and i hate this uncertainty. i even wish i had someone just like fiona and delfine have each other - although they're so terribly reclusive and cliquish - they at least have each other, they
know that's for sure. i long not for some kind of day-too-day casual conversations, but something
real.
or do i really need that? isnt God supposed to be enough?
pathetically scrambling along life's thoroughfares.
every day is a new day ♥
