Wednesday, October 06, 2004 ;
12:36:00 AM
sigh. when something is settled, another thing props up. yet this is, sadly, less distressing but more serious. what if something happens and i lose someone i never knew? that i never did my part? what if everything we've planned goes so utterly wrong? i'm so scared, but i'm not.. i push it away, trying to think that it wont be - that its only the worst case scenario. i long for someone to hold my hand and let me know i'm being supported, someone who's patient and free to listen. but.. sigh. nvm. my needs are not important, compared to his.
i just hope everything goes as planned tomorrow, that there'll be no resistance, but he'll see the light and be reasonable. yes Lord, please be there watching over the happenings.. and controlling the events.. you've brought so many angels to his life, Lord God please continue to preserve him.
an afterthought: i realize how good i am at acting. haha.
every day is a new day ♥
