Tuesday, September 28, 2004 ;
1:48:00 AM
and friends are friends forever
when the Lord's the Lord of them
and friends will not say never
coz the welcome will not end
though its hard to let you go
in the Father's hands we know
that a lifetime's not too long to live as friends..
sigh it seems like a long time ago when i last believed in the power of friendships. like the "redeeming influence of human relations" in the book of
Silas Marner, i always thought that friends are wonderful, always meant to be there and to help you up whenever you're down. i realize now i was greatly mistaken. friendships of that sort only exist in the realm of fantasy. i thought i had found my real friends this year, but only to lose them again. it hurts, tears are unavoidable but what can i do? what's done is done. perhaps its just me - i'm meant to be a loner. if even after so many yrs i cant maintain a close friendship with just one person.. and others can, thus the problem must lie with me. perhaps i should just shut myself out.. indulge in superficial talk because i have to.. and remain closed to everyone else. for what's the point of opening up when i know that it will end in nothing?
But yet men are led away from threatening destruction: a hand is put into theirs, which leads them forth gently towards a calm and bright land, so that they look no more backward; and the hand may be a little child's. or a friend. i long for that touch.
every day is a new day ♥
