Tuesday, August 17, 2004 ;
10:57:00 PM
things have been weighing down on my heart rather heavily today and i just cant find words to express why or how. sigh. have you ever felt that way? that something's burdening you, pressing down inscructably on your shoulders and yet you just cant tell what it is exactly that is bothering you so? sigh. how do i shake off this feeling?
i feel like living a life of obscurity sometimes, hidden from view from everyone else. and yet, when i do go there, its so so quiet. so terribly, horribly alone. isolation is good, and yet bad. the silence will hover so heavily in the air - and everything will be so soft that it becomes so awfully loud. and slowly, eventually, the tears will fall... wondering if anyone really cares at all.
I need You now more than ever Lord...
yet why then do You seem so so so far away?
every day is a new day ♥
