Tuesday, July 13, 2004 ;
10:22:00 AM
i just spoke to him... sigh. he's still smarting from the conversation we had last night. i cant blame him. its really all my fault. sigh. sometimes i just dont know why i treat him so badly when i really care for him inside. is it pride? or just my defences to prevent myself from being hurt? i cant say. i dont know what to say. sigh.
later am going to meet shi ying and yu hui for lunch at city hall... then perhaps meeting di after that for a studying session. hope i can really focus and begin on my advanced theory driving studies... mum will be disappointed if i fail. sigh. i sometimes detest living up to expectations, you know? when i went out with ann yesterday, i realized how many times i had to mention the word "mum" - i really felt like a mother's girl... who hasnt detached herself from the apron strings. everything i do, i have to take into consideration what my mum will think. argh!
sigh sorry. i'm just in one of those moods over a period of time. yeah. but trust me, its not pms. NO WAY. perhaps its just apprehension over school reopening soon. i dont know. i get affected quite easily. yup.
every day is a new day ♥
