Monday, July 12, 2004 ;
10:44:00 PM
hey...
is it so wrong to want to upgrade my lousy camera? sigh. both my mum and bj are absolutely discouraging. they just cant understand that i really have been wanting a good camera since like dunno when... and when i got my present one i was so excited until i realized that its such a useless thing. true, i'm lucky i even have a camera but... sigh. i just dont know. i'll just forget i even looked around for best prices of good cameras and forget those i've set my eyes on... and just... just forget. i know it sounds silly. but though i never really said it out (coz its not exactly a great topic to converse about) but i really like good cameras. i find them fascinating. like how alvin from my nus camp grp was experimenting and stuff with his cam - drawing out the lights from the background to the fore... its really cool. the pictures that come out, each one of them, are a breathless piece of art... the wait of the picture to surface is exhilarating. its like you're an artist, in a certain way. my camera can never do those stuff. all it does is take pictures, still ones. videos without audio. argh. be content. why is it so hard? just a simple wish and i'm willing to pay for it myself and... all i get are walls around. and dreams just remaining as what they are - dreams.
every day is a new day ♥
