Saturday, July 03, 2004 ;
12:32:00 AM
good news today!! bj's threat of confinement has been cancelled, announced null and void! oh... this is great great great news! woo hoo! haha... okok i better stop before i embarrass myself... =) hee...
went out to orchard at about 1pm today... had an appt with the audiologist again... and since i was only meeting xuan at 4... i hung around shops for about 2 and a half hours. sigh it was really dreary and i really missed having bj by my side whenever i saw couples... and even my best pals... sigh. havent seen shi ying for about two weeks!
bumped into suhannyi at liat towers espirit... she was waiting for grace and me, killing time. yeah well. she looked the same and insisted that she was fat. *rolls eyes* she?! fat?! then i'm like what... obese?! *duh*
saw 'chalky guy' today... doubt any of you who reads my blog knows who in the world he is. sigh well its just a nickname she and i gave this guy in our sec school... who was rather cute... think he's like 2 to 3 yrs older than us and i've no idea what's his name and who he is... but he looked so much the same i couldnt help but halt in my tracks and stare... haha he sure still looked good! *oops* oh well... felt an impulse right there and then to at least call or sms her to tell her... but i held back. i dont know why. pride? perhaps. until now i still havent spoken to her. and it was then also when i felt the pinch in my heart again, whether its really worth it, those 6 to 7 yrs of friendship. worth that little thing that broke us apart like glass shattered on the floor. but i dont know what to do....
met xuan today... just to pluck eyebrows. argh. admittedly it was kinda a waste of time... heh sorry... hope that we'll get to spend much better quality time together next time... today seemed a little weird. out of place. made me realize things that was staring at me in my face but i was just too dense to notice.
nothing much else to say. my heart's lighter now than most days but still it feels heavy... weighed down by things i never knew would come by... and though i try to make things seem alright, its the nighttime where they come rushing back to me again, like a insistent memory - refusing to be forgotten.
every day is a new day ♥
