Friday, April 16, 2004 ;
12:51:00 AM
i feel the pressure circling in upon me and i cant get away. i dont feel like coping with it anymore, on top of, well, everything. i just feel so plain bad. bad- not in the sense where i did something wrong and i'm regretting my actions... rather, just bad. the opposite of good.
i cannot understand why.
and its not like yesterday's session made it any better when i thought it would. rather, i quitted it early and shut myself up inside my own cocoon, impenetrable. i dont know why i get them, no matter how offhanded they may be, still they are there and they hurt- like daggers.
it reduces me to plain dumb, stupid and dumb.
need i say more?
every day is a new day ♥
