Sunday, February 22, 2004 ;
11:20:00 PM
sometimes i wonder why couples cant get along... why they always quarrel when they should be so thankful that they're brought together in the great scheme of things... even if it might be for just a little while... why cant they be grateful, thankful for all that they have... how fortunate they all are to even have someone to love them, to think of them before they sleep... to care for them and talk to them everyday. and yet... and yet they just cant appreciate it... the pure beauty of just being loved, the privilege of just having someone to care for them during that period of them... someone beautiful in their sight. why are humans always so unsatisfied? it hurts everytime i hear of relationships on the rocks - truthfully i prefer to not hear about it. i just cannot understand. if the two of them love each other... why must they make it so complicated? why cant they just... i dunno. i just dunno. pride? most probably. (Proverbs 16:18 - Pride goes before destruction, a haughty spirit before a fall.) too proud to admit one's own mistakes? dunno la... maybe i just dont understand either. and it aint just couples. parent and child. husband and wife. friend and friends.... what were they all thinking???
anyway... all these events lately have been teaching me one thing - to be thankful, grateful in ALL circumstances. really. be content with what i've got. seek the Lord in all i do and TURN away (180 degrees turn away) from all evil deeds and thoughts. be thankful i've my mum, godmum, bj to care for me... they dont owe me anything to even bother to care. just sticking to simplicity i guess. yeah.
this weekend was really special... got to spend precious time with bj and my church friends... a break from the hum-drum activities of the week. its really wonderful loving and knowing you're loved as well... sometimes when you look in the most unlikely places... that's where you find the most love.
bj returned to camp this evening... another long wk before he comes out again.
cell group with darren and adrain today was good. learnt quite alot from them... sharing our experiences and gaining insight and knowledge from them. after all, they've been through what charlene and i are encountering now... gave me ideas on how to handle my cell... i mean... really really handle... after all its quite a scary thought - i'll be accountable for each and every one of them on the judgment day and if i didnt do a job that is of my best... yeah... if i didnt put in my best, my all, how can i expect them to respond enthusiastically like the way i hope they would? no, it starts from me. its a whole new world opened up to my eyes today... and i hope that God'll be an integral and essential part of that world from this day onwards.
and besides, guys, girls, or whoever you are now reading this entry, please dont think i'm pinpointing you or what... esp in the first para... i'm just... trying to voice out my thoughts? i dont wanna continue pretending i think nothing's wrong - you know what i mean? yupz. that's it.
every day is a new day ♥
